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  y: i feel the same way but u know we cant stop it

me: mom said we should celebrate it as normal as possible. i dont know.what’s normal?
y: but come to think of it..we still have reasons to celebrate i mean look we still have each other. dad is still with us and mom and me and well..bebe i hope. and we are catching up with the finances.

me: ur thinking of her again?

y: i cant remember a time that i didnt think of her. its like that. its a part of me. i dont know how to stop.

me: u dont want to stop that’s why

y: yeah, i think so.

me: u told her about the latest test results?

y: not yet, wanna show the results when i get home. i mean, you know, i want her to see it, read it. i dont want to explain things on the phone anymore. its difficult. its not healthy anymore. i’m no longer happy with that.

me: good to hear that. so, she’s booking your flight back?

y: only if she wants to. dont want to ask.

me: i dont want to think that this is our last christmas with dad. that thought is so creepy.

y: then, don’t think of it.

me: so what are the plans for christmas? any suggestion? i just want a cup of expresso.

y: too much coffee can kill

me: yeah, sure. i’m dead

y: we will celebrate it with the family. look at the blessings godfrey. i know its hard but we got to look at the other side of things. christmas is not about us anyway, its about HIM, Jesus, the bithday boy.