-APHASIA-

…letting go or not giving up

…live or die

…cry or laugh

…let it loose or keep it tight

…believe in miracles or accept God’s will

i’m at the crossroads..i know this time its too close to losing or….then again maybe not…

i know He holds Dad’s life in His hands…and His will..is the best for Dad..for us..

But what a heck….it still hurts….really bad

And i’ve counted 135,687 sheeps and i still cant sleep

Lately I’ve been noticing
I say the same things he used to say
And I even find myself acting the very same way
I tap my fingers on the table
To the rhythm in my soul
And I jingle the car keys
When I’m ready to go
When I look in the mirror
He’s right there in my eyes
Starin’ back at me and I realize

A little more of my father in me
                                                   -song for Dad, keith urban

happy birthday dad! i know we are into a difficult situation right now but still i want to thank you for keeping the family intact. we know you are fighting for us and we thank you for that. please dont worry so much about me, i maybe your "bunsoy" but i’m a big bunsoy now dad, i can take care of myself and there’s mommy, kuya, yaku, ate and ditse, i know they will never let me down. dad, i know we had our moments and i want to say sorry if there were times that i chose not to understand you. sorry if sometimes i see you as a dictator, an old-fashion dad who doesnt want me to have fun..but now dad, i realized that its all because of your love for me. i love you daddy so much. and i am so proud you are my dad and i am your son. God bless you daddy. i’m praying and i have high hopes that you can make it. "walang joaquin na sumusuko!" di ba dad? cheers to the best dad in the world!

..its scrotal hernia (thank GOD it’s not epidydimis).that explains the unpleasing, unstimulating, uneasy groin aches that i’ve been experiencing lately. its surgery time for me folks. please do pray for me.

(the surgeon is a hot hot female doctor from india he he he..reminds me of kamasutra!)

“In our lives there is bound to come some pain, surely as there are storms and falling rain; just believe that the one who holds the storms will bring the sun.” -anonymous

Cancer Horoscope, 2007 shows that family will continue to be significant in this phase. There will be small scale troubles in the family circuit but with your high endurance level, this will be sorted out. Family will be there by your side. There will be differences within and without the circle of your family. Things will settle by the second quarter of this year.

Flow of finances will be smooth. There will be little hiccups at the end of the first quarter but things will fall back in their place. The lucky color for the cancer people will be serene white. Their lucky stone is pearl. This gem with elegance will help the cancer people avoid all kinds of mood swings. The lucky number of the cancer people is six.(sex!?)

You are very prone to marrying early, only to have it fail. Your domestic instinct is so strorig it pulls you in as soon as is legally possible-in your case, often right out of high school. Unfortunately, most people are not prepared for the realities of such a young partnership, especially not you. Your need for domestic bliss only worsens the inevitable problems, and once your mate discovers you’re soft on the inside, it could shatter his or her image of you as the hard protector. The trouble is, you’re both at once, which makes it harder for you to achieve that perfect symbiosis.

You’ll want to avoid matches with Gemini (too flighty for you), Aries (too bold and self-centered), and Sagittarius (despite an initial attraction, the wandering, popular Sagittarian may be too much for you to handle, and jealousy and rage are right around the corner).

Kowabangga!!!

Lately I’ve been missin the little look in your eyes, that lets me know that everything will be okay tell me whats changed. I find it hard to hold on to the butterflies that used to be inside. You don’t have to say a word it’s written all over your face.

So before the night is through I want some time with you, here’s what we’re gonna do..

Let’s take the long way home, so we can be alone, and talk about what’s goin on, pull on over to the side all we have is time (some time) so tell me what’s on your mind, let’s take the long way home, I can see that somethings wrong, girl,you gotta let me know, while there’s no one else around (no one else around) we can work it out, ooh yea, Lets take the long way home

I know we messed up but I know that we can get it together, it might be hard to say when we’re havin doubts tryin to work it out, I know it seems easier to pull away, you see I want you to know that I will stay right here cuz we deserve another try, so let’s just enjoy the ride.

Take a left right here on heartbreak avenue, it’s where I first met you. You said you wanna take a spin that’s how it all began so we can get back to lovin again.

Let’s take the long way home, so we can be alone, and talk about what’s goin on, pull on over to the side all we have is time (some time) so tell me what’s on your mind, let’s take the long way home, I can see that somethings wrong, girl,you gotta let me know, while there’s no one else around (no one else around) we can work it out, ooh yea, Lets take the long way home.

-toni braxton, long way home (from the LIBRA album)

i’ll drive you back to hayward. yeah 8pm. got it. why do i have this funny feeling that i need some rubber tonight…mmm..shoes i mean. he he he.

..i feel it everytime i drive myself home from the hospital..weird..empty…heavy feeling.am i running out of gas?

thanks for that call. hey, you sound better today than yesterday. gwapo na ulit he he he…finally, half of the "itinerary" was finished.congratulations. well, i really dont want to comment.but you are right, they can say what they want to say, think what they want to think or even judge you but GOD knows your heart and that’s what matters.

now, the main event…i know you are excited…i am excited too and i’m praying so hard for that…i know you can do it..put aside all those negative thoughts…it won’t help you..remember what you told me about seizing the opportunity while its there? so this is the moment..the opportunity…seize it…go for it.

you said your love for her is bigger than the fear that you feel..so prove it..show the love..give it…let her feel it..from your arms..from your lips…from your heart.

we are all praying for you… and for her also…yes, you are at the right track..and i believe in you.. just have faith in yourself…always ask Him for guidance..you can never go wrong…full speed ahead…your pot of gold is there…at the finish line

i believe in you biggie brother…you can do it…see her and do what you have to do…fight..fight..fight..aja!!!

(p.s. so if you choose to give up your O2..since you’ll not gonna be talking to her on the phone again…wink.. send it via fedex okay…he he he he)

"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound
that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath
deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but
sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt
and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is
you can’t outrun it and life always makes more.- Dr. Meredith Grey"

got my new xbox 360!!! finally!! yahoooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! thanks ninong jim! sometimes it pays to give a ninong a visit! he he he